one minite you are on top of the world and you think no one can nock you off and then bamm it happens the life you know is a thing of the past I am still trying to pick up all the peices its so scattered that its taking me alot more time than I ever expected but I am doing it and thats that and I am trying to find a new career but thas a complicated one I have worked construction all my life well at least half 13 years and its been good to me but its time to find my calling I am starting to think its in creative writing but who knows if I can make a living doing that I am a single 26 yr old guy just lost in the balince of life I am not on top any more and I am climbing up from the bottom and the second time climbing up is twice as hard because you look at the past alot and in my case the past hurts alot I have been burned by all kinds of people in my life but I need to learn to trust people again and biggist of all I need to find the confidence and trust in myself I had it before but its like it was never there but I now it is in there some were I know no one will probaly read this but if you do I need some constructive critism on were to go next I am stumped and I don't trust my own judgment so it makes disiding on what I am gonna do now is but I know I need a girlfriend that would be good I was single for the last 8 years acecpt for my ex feonsae that was a wild ride we were together for about a cupple of months and then she left me and it was a short seperation but when we got back together I proposed to her and she said yes but things went down hill from there I geuss it just wasn't ment to be even know I love her with all my heart and always will but she also broke my heart worst than any female that has hurt me like that she cheated on me and I broke the ingagment off and thas enough of that but I am lonly and I want to find my match I had it once I thought but I want to be loved and thas all not used for what I have or what I can do for some one for me I am a nice guy and as the saying goes the nice guy always finishes last and that sux because it apears to be true well thats all for now show me some love
