yeah ok so, so much shit is just happening to me and i don't know what to do about it....everything is falling apart and i see it all happening and it seems like its happening so slow yet so fast and yet there is nothing i can do but fall down even further. am i destined to be picking myslef time after time after time? i hate it...i seriously want to trade this life in for a new one. or at least find a way to numb the pain. hell i'm up for anything anymore. i'm so tired of being the nice guy everyone shits on its not fair its not right and it sure as heel isn't what i wanted to be. i'm not a bad person i believe everyone should be happy but damnit when is it going to be my time? the people who say they care for me could really give a rats ass about me. and i'm starting to feel nothing but contempt for the ones who are close to my heart. i'm to the point where dying right now and going to hell would be a perfectly viable option for me....at least i know what to expect -forrest out
