ok so now i'm back at sqaure one...i have my place but no job in a hell hole... i don't know what i'm going to do i'm about to be drove fucking nuts and i have no one by my side. i really feel alone here in the world again..i wish i knew what to do but then i thought i had control of my life. i guess in the end it doesn't really matter how hard you try to keep afloat only how hard you crash. i want to wallow in my own self pity right now i want a shoulder to cry on and i have none i want and need alot of things right now that i can't provide or find. i feel forsaken......
