2613299's blog: "Life Changing Events"

So, I was working at one of the local jails March of 2008, and was meeting some very interesting people.  But, as with any situation one in particular caught my attention.  He was extremely out of place in the facility.  He was clean, well spoken, polite, and extremely intelligent.  On several occasions when I wasn't having a great day, no matter how hard I tried to mask it; he would call me out on it.  It became almost therapuetic talking to him.  When it came about I was going to have to leave that job I was heartbroken and scared.  Yes I was terribly upset about leaving my job.  I loved it.  But, I was more scared because I had come attached to this fine man.  I came to know Robert as an extremely kind, careing, loving, intelligent, and beautiful man.  We worked out a system to write so that it would not cause problems. About two weeks after I left I wrote the first letter.  I was extremely shocked to quickly receive one back. From then on it seemed as if each of us was flooding each other with letters, drawings, pictures, and the like.  I'd send pages from find a words, he'd send them back with extra words found on them such as love, marriage, kids etc.  In that I started finding that I too was falling in love with him.  It came up that he too had fallen in love with me.  So when he got on early on Oct 13 I was there waiting anxiously to hold and kiss him like I'd wanted to for so long.  By that date I had two 2 inch binders of all his letters, cards, and drawings.  We immediately set out to find his family, and I met them first thing that day!  I became part of that family.  His daughters call me Mommy, his parents accepted me as one of their own (no matter the fact I am white), and even his daughters Grandparents on the otherside adore me.  It was announced we were getting engaged, when we went to church he gave his life to God.  However the thing no one saw coming is the thing that ruined it so terribly for everyone.  It started when the daily phone calls stopped.  From 1 every 2 hrs to none.  Then I got the call from his Mother asking if he was with me, but he wasn't.  He'd been gone a week at that time from their home.  Not doing the lawn jobs we had for the business we were tryin to run.  No Rob had fallen into the lines of his old ways.  First he took my digital camera which I had entrusted him with and sold it for $20 and then began stealing things from his parents.  Last I spoke with him was Christmas Day 2008, he couldn't concentrate on our conversation.  And when I told him I loved him still and still wanted him to get help so we could get married and get custody of the girls...he didn't say anything.  The crack had taken over his will to fight for us anymore.  Last I hear he is now livin in the streets cause his parents put him out.  He had tried to get treatment but failed the test to get into the program cause he was testing positive.  To anyone that reads this...remember what ever your drug of choice you think no one but you is being hurt, but it hurts everyone around you.  I pray daily and sometimes hourly that he will get the help he needs and that we finally get on with the life we'd talked so extensively about.  Yes I still love him madly, despite his faults.  I always will.  Even if/when I find another.  The fact is if I was to find another, if Rob came to me and was truly clean and doing right; I'd leave to be with him.  Yes, my love is that deep.  I guess that's why I haven't been truly serious with anyone since him.  I can't be serious, when I still love Rob so much.

  Well,this is for all you who like to go out drinking and don't use designated drivers!  On Mother's Day 2004 I was Managing a local convenience store when something made me look up and stare down the highway.  Thats when a large SUV caught my eye.  It ran the red light in the middle of town and then came barreling through the emergency signal.  They driver tried to change lanes and over steered careening her into the vehicle of a detention deputy on her way to my store.  The effects of what happen next will forever play in my mind.  When her vehicle hit the deputy's it ricocheted it onto the store property.  It came inches from killing one of my customers as it crossed our property airborn.  It then struck the other gas pump sending it into the McDonald's parking lot on the next block along with a large 500 lb cement trash can.  The driver, a 19 yr old female, was ejected and her body wrapped around the awning pole.  her right arm was severed and flung several feet from her body.  I can still see her limp body sliding down that pole!  I still see her SUV doing somersaults end over end landing also in the McDonald's parking lot.  This young girl died on that property that day as I stood watching, it was a Sunday morning and a couple of the local pastors were in my store when it all happened and just as she slipped away to deaths door, they gave her last rights.  She had been out drinking all night with her friends and was rushing to work, for which she was late.  If nothing else I hope this will make someone think before drinking.  Not after when it's too late, but make you plan before you even go out.  How will you go home?  Will you be totally 100% sober before you need to drive again the next day?  Is it worth my life and the life of anyone else if I choose to drink and drive?  Because I tell you it is not worth it, that day a daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend was lost.  Please plan ahead!