On Hiatus's blog: "Let's Try This Out"

Tonight is one of my best friends 21st birthday. We are going out shortly, which I can't believe I am going out on a Monday night since I have a 14 hour work day tomorrow but oh well. I never do anything anymore. All my co-workers say I am a "waste of a 21 year old," since I act like such an old lady nowadays. That's ok. I'm pre-gaming a little bit though for two reasons. A.) To save a little money and B.) to calm my nerves. I think I have a very MILD case of social anxiety. I don't always feel comfortable going to places like bars and such, but I will still go out and do it. It's nothing too serious, but slightly annoying. Oh well, 45 minutes til I leave.

After a year and a half, I picked up the awful habit of The Sims 2 again. I'll be on here even less than I already am, since in my limited spare time I will be playing that.

I went to see the Bodies Exhibit tonight. They used real human bodies that they have preserved and they were on display. Every single body part, including nerves, veins, arteries and such. It was really cool how they did it. Definitely something everyone should check out if it comes to your city. There is a bit of controversy behind it since they are using Asian bodies and the origin of them is a bit iffy. Who knows though. I guess I am just going to go to bed now, not much else to do really. I could go out and drink and such, but after seeing the damage that can cause to your liver, I think I'm going to wait a week or so ;)

I feel pretty stuck right now. I was SUPPOSED to move out soon with my best friend, but now she has decided she wants to leave the country instead. Which is fine, but she is very indecisive about these things. One second she wants me to get a job out of the country, the next second she is buying a house and I am to be her roommate, and now she is back on the leaving the country thing again. I can't keep up. If she leaves the country I probably won't be able to go so I guess I will be stuck at my parent's house until I can afford a place of my own, on my own. Which shouldn't take too terribly long but I am a little bummed out. A.) I was getting excited about moving out and B.) I don't want my best friend to leave the country, but what can you do? I'll just keep working my two jobs and being miserable as always ;)

I seem to be having a SLIGHT issue with sliding into the world of adulthood. Now that I have a full time job, plus a part time job, and my student loans have kicked in, I can't seem to keep up with anything. You should see my room, it is disgusting. I just have mail after mail after mail thrown everywhere and I don't know what to do with it all! Or where to even start. I pay all my bills on time, but I get so much junk mail mixed in and blah blah blah. I think I have paid all of my student loans that are due, unless there is another one that I have lost in my mountain of mail. I guess I will find out next month if I get slammed with a late fee from one of them. I'm pretty stressed out with the demands of my "real" job as of lately. For some strange reason, I thought it would be a good idea to go into the world of computers. Now I am saving the world, one PC at a time. Or at least that's what I tell myself to sleep at night. If I can even sleep. Since my part time job is slinging lattes to rich people at the local Starfucks. Bitter? Me? Now my best friend wants to buy a house and have me be her roommate, which is definitely something that I want to do. At the same time I am feeling a little apprehensive just because it's my final leap into adulthood. Moving out of my parents house, have to pay rent and utilities and even do my own laundry and cook my own meals! :X I have a potential new "love interest" that I am going to meet sometime this week. I'm really sick and tired of being single so I hope we hit it off, but I never like anyone so it will probably be a bust. The thought of being someone's girlfriend also causes me a bit of anxiety since I haven't been with anyone in so long. Working 65 hours a week I don't even really have time for one, and I really don't want to rearrange my life for one at the moment. Maybe now is not the time? Maybe I should continue to work away my youth? Good Lord I sure hope not!

ahhhh I hate my fucking jobs! They both suck and cause me a great deal of stress adipuhhfkjlndflkj I want to quit them all and just live off the system like everyone else! But I can't! Damn integrity!

It drives me absolutely crazy when people don't follow through. I can't stand it when people SAY they are going to be somewhere and then at the very LAST minute decide not to go. If you never had any intention of going, then don't say you will. Or at least let people know a few hours beforehand, not a few minutes.

I wish this site was still called Lost Cherry. I liked the old ways when everyone was referred to as a "Cherry" and you could "pop someone's comment cherry." CherryTap was an OK name. Better than Fubar I suppose. I just miss the old site and some of the people that used to be on here before people could buy their way into internet "fame." Also before all the ridiculous ads and notifications every 5 minutes that you are prequalified for a stupid ass survey. Oh well.

I somehow managed to score a much needed weekend off. I'm sure most of you know I work 65 hours a week, 7 days a week, but not this weekend :) I only worked 5 like a normal person and about 55 hours. Not too shabby. Saturday I spent the day at a friend's house and then went to another friend's house for a couple drinks. Today I just went miniature golfing with 2 friends and of course caught up on some much needed sleep. Now I'm just waiting for my dad to wake up so we can watch "The Next Iron Chef" competition LoL. I WILL move out of my parent's house someday. My student loans just kicked in this month though so I'm gonna milk it for a little while longer, until I am financially stable to be able to pay rent, student loans, cell phone bill, car insurance, etc. I'm kind of bored right now, so if you are reading this and would like to chat about nothing in particular for a little while, send me an email on here. Yahoo=Sarah79950

Did you ever look back on some of the people you have dated and just wonder "what the fuck was I thinking?" I was just thinking about the few guys that I've been in "relationships" with and all I can do is just laugh and wonder WTF? I could also just kick myself for wasting my time with these idiots and I can't for the life of me figure out what attracted me to some of them. Oh well. It's been a whole year and half since my last relationship, so obviously I am being more precautious, or picky ;)