{{6/23/07}}Betrayed but not going to be willing to change
You ever have so much on your mind that you don't know where to start & it feels like nothing's on your mind?
-What causes you to feel emotions-
{{6/26/07}} I love singing. I dunno how good I am at it, but I loveit. My friends like it, but they could just be being really nice (lol) I've wanted to take voice lessons for years. I use to do karaoke at an [ex]friend's house all the time. I just really love singing....and music in general. I had considered minoring in management and trying to start a record label or something. I completely *love* and live music. I write songs as well. Just lyrics though, I can't write music. I can't play any instruments, but I want to. ( i love the drums and guitars mwhahah) There's so much I wanna do! I think when the toddler-o-mine wake up, Ima dance with him. He loves music too =] Gunna break out my KSE cd. Killswitch Engage hasta be my favorite band, by far. Their newest album, Daylight Dies, kicks ass. I literally can listen to it all day ( and I have before) and I always listen to it when I sleep......yeah, I'm weird o_O
-I've got writer's block,...sucky-
{{6/27/07}}Why are credit cards associated with sports? And what is the purpose of the prepaid Visa card? ..Isnt it exactly like a debit card?
-This whole incident with Chris Benoit is crazy-
{{6/30/07}} yayness! My bday is in 5 days! I start work in 6.. i'm thrilled. I can't wait. I'm temporarily cured of my writer's block. I also realized I have an unfinished song floating around. I love writing. I love a lot of things...like randomness. I rock =] <3
-We finally got a decent storm today. Lord knows we need the rain-
**Do they have Walmarts in Canada?**
{{11:30pm}} I'm not trying to whine or constantly bring up the subject, but I'm still healing. And I can tell I'm healing. I didn't cry just now over this certian memory. I'm here listening to my Evans Blue cd and there's a song on here that I dedicated to Aaron. It's called Eclipsed. it's my favorite song off the cd. I can remember the way my room smelt when I first heard the song. And it makes me think back to that point in time. Ace was about a month old when I got this cd so things were good. I'm proud of myself for not crying. I loev Aaron, I still do and I always will. I don't want him anymore. Not after this. I've had time to think. No, I'm not over him *BuT* I have come to the decision I am better off without him. If he believes that what he is with is better than me, then so be it. I am who I am. If you can't take me & love me that way then fuck you. It's his loss and someone else's gain. For two and a half years I fought the world for him, for us, and this is what I get in the end. I'm a loyal person. I will do anything for the one I love. I did as much as I could to prove to him that I love him. This is what he wants, that's fine. I don't want him anymore. I dont need him and I don't need a man to make me happy or " make me feel good." I was surviving before Aaron and I can go back to that. I'm healing and I'm proud of myself for that. A lot has fallen into place the past two weeks. It's like a sign that this is where I'm suppose to be..<3
o_O I failed to realized just how *RETARDED* my aunt and my sister are...They'll make ya laugh til ya pee on yourself....... crazy heffiers.
{{7/1/07}} 4 more days til muh bday! w00t w00t! ...o_O a spider just ran right by me....*cringes* I'm terrified of spiders ( yeah hush Wes... I can hear you laughin at me punkass ).. I dunno why.. but they're scary as hell and ... I dont like them. So if anyone wants to come find it and kill it.. please please do.
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