IM SITTING HERE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT THINKING WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING OUT HERE ? I DON'T KNOW IF IT IS FOR MONEY OR FOR GREED. I MEAN HELL, I AM UP TO MY NECK IN DEBT AND I DO NEED THE MONEY BUT IN THE SAME SENSE I REALLY WISH I COULD BE HOME MORE OFTEN THAN I AM. YOU WOULD THINK FOR THE AMOUNT OF TIME I SPEND ON THE ROAD THAT A BONUS OR SOMETHING WOULD BE IN ORDER. SOMETHING TO REWARD ME FOR SPENDING SO MUCH TIME AWAY FROM MY OWN DAMN HOME. MAYBE THIS IS THE GREED SETTING IN I MENTIONED A FEW MINUTES AGO. I MADE THIS BED AS PEOPLE SAY AND NOW IT IS TIME FOR ME TO LAY IN IT. WITH THE ECONOMY LIKE IT IS I GUESS I SHOULD BE HAPPY TO EVEN HAVE A JOB. EVEN IF IT IS ALMOST 500 MILES OR BETTER FROM HOME MOST OF THE TIME. ATLEAST I AM WITH A COMPANY THAT RESPECTS ME FOR MY ABILITIES. THEY LEAVE ME ALONE FOR THE MOST PART AND NEVER REALLY GIVE ME ANY GRIEF AS LONG AS I DO MY JOB AND DON'T CAUSE ANY TROUBLE. I SEND IN AN AGENDA EVERY DAY FOR WHAT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED AND THAT IS THAT. I KNOW I KEEP DWELLING ON THIS SAME FACT BUT I HAVE A SPECIAL PERSON AT HOME NOW AND IT KILLS ME TO BE HERE AWAY FROM HER AND ALL I CAN DO IS STARE AT HER ON A DAMN WEB CAM TILL WE ARE IN EACH OTHERS ARMS AGAIN.
