This going to be a long read but I needed to let it all out so I could let go of the old and ring in the new.
This year has been a total journey of lost and found for me. I have to back up a little here to sort of explain to my new readers what has happened.
In 2004, I met and married a man with children. They all came to live with me and my children in June of that same year along with my dad. At one point I was supporting 7 people under my roof. The love that the man and I shared was great, it was his baggage from his former marriage that haunted us. BADLY!!!
He couldn't get a job because his police record state that he had been CONVICTED of domestic assault 3 times in 5 years. Even though he had been an Immigration Agent that quit, he was told that when his 5 year review came up, they would have recommended that he be removed from service. No body would hire him because of his record.
I spent the majority of my time researching laws, making phone calls, typing out transcripts of phone conversations with his ex wife and going to every single extra curricular game that I could for all of our 4 kids on top of being a Girl Scout leader and working.
In 2005, I was still the sole support of our household. HE finally got a job at the end of April. Unfortunately, the money he made went toward a truck that was not in his name and any other bill that was in his name but NOTHING went toward the support of our family financially. This was also when he met his now live in girlfriend.
On June 3rd, 2005, my father died. We had the funeral and the next day we drove to MS. to drop off my children for there court awarded time with their father. We had to turn around and drive all the way to KS so that he could appear in court on a frivilous motion that his ex wife had filed.
I was mentally, emotionally, and finacially exhausted. The new woman saw all of this and put her moves on my now ex husband. Within two months, she had him packing up and moving home to VA with his momma. She took something I said to him way out of context and twisted it to serve her.
To say I went nuts is putting it mildly. Our 4 children were just as baffled as I was. They never saw us get into an argument or anything. In fact, every single person including his own mother was trying to figure it out. He lied to all of us because of her.
I spent all that time building up the man and his children instead of spending time with my father. My dad dies and he walks out on me two months later knowing full well that I had no means in which to pay my bills. Not only that but he refused to talk to me on the phone. He said it confused him. We had to send e-mails only and as I found out, it was because they had to go through someone else before he replied. He was talking to everyone else except me. So, I stopped sending him e-mails.
Oh yeah, I forgot; one e-mail she said was a threat and took all of it to HPD! I think it was because she knew full well she needed the ass kicking. Ha! Ha! She sat here scared to death that I was going to hurt her while she lived out the rest of her lease. That's freaking hilarious. I don't even have to lay one hand on her because she hangs herself.
Even with all of that, I still loved him enough to drive all the way up to VA at the end of last year to try to talk to him. He was my husband and we did have a lot to discuss but little did I know his ex-wife was there with the kids and I made a fool of myself because HE was a chicken shit and didn't bother to tell me she was there.
Yeah, Gary you deserve all the bashing my friends have given you. You are a piece of shit! I wanted to kill myself because of you and what Catherine and Christine set up. I came so close...so close.
Luckily for me, my son must have felt the pain I was in and called my cellphone. My 16 year old talked to me for hours. And by a total blessing I got a phone call from a very old friend that said, "Leave and come spend NYE with us!"
I packed up my stuff and drove to SC. It was great. We cammed with all of our old friends and basically had a virtual New Years Eve Party. We all talked for hours until I fell asleep. lol New Years day was spent traveling to Georgia to pick up my kids from their visit with their dad.
Coming home to the house and it really hitting me that the marriage was over, I was bancrupt and still not able to get back on my feet eventually led me to a break down when I received the divorce papers. I couldn't even concentrate on my school work and my counselors at school told me that I had to go back to my psych doc to get a leave of absence from school.
I had to go to a different psych doc because my ins had changed. I just let go of everything in her office and when I did her eyes got as big as saucers. She was writing scripts for anti-depressants, anxiety pills, sleep pills and anything else she could think of. I was like damn! The freaking drug dealers would love to heist me coming from the drug store! It did help. I'm not going to lie. My dad died and my husband basically ran off when the money ran out..why not?
But it really wasn't the drugs that helped me totally. I had a lot of people come into my life and come back into my life. My brother and I formed a stronger better bond as well as my aunt. That was a total surprise. Even my 85 year old neighbor told me things that blew my mind that she had never told anyone. She said, "I saw him out in your front yard sometimes and I just wanted to shake and say what is wrong with you boy?" lol
The other surprise was the paramor's ex boyfriend, his brother and his new g/f befriending me and telling me that it truly was her bs and not what she was trying to make me into some crazy lunatic. I knew that someone else out there had to know how she really was besides me. They confirmed what I had known from first meeting her, she is truly a sick, deviant woman behind her "angel" facade.
People came to me and pulled me up. They surrounded me with love, comfort and a safety net. Even people that didn't even like me found compasion for me because they saw with their own eyes what I was doing to try and better myself.
On August 28th, I was released from one of the biggest mistakes of my life. With all of the love that I had for that man and his children, I let him go to his new prison. The one set up on lies and deceit of a desperate woman. I PAID for the divorce because he wanted to represent himself and had NO divorce papers in hand when it came to trial. So, I have every right to say I divorced him.
Rumor has it that the feds are watching her closely and I had nothing to do with it. My little psychic dream shows them busting down the door, taking the items in question and her in handcuffs. Bahahahahaha! While her profile said she was taking a break for vocal challenges, rumor has it she came to Houston to hide for a while just like she is doing now. I am so lmao at all that I have learned about her. But that's his choice of sickness.
As I have told him all along, I stand and deliver. I do not have to hide behind lies, deceit, locked gates, guards, fake screen names, and fake police reports to live my life. I choose to live my life, happy, healthy and free of the drama that is his life. Even in my worst days, I never sank as low as that homewrecker he is with.
That mistake has cost me over $100,000.00. He added insult to injury by calling the IRS and saying I shouldn't be able to take his child as a deduction since I didn't give birth to him. Actually, I fully supported him and his children, have all the receipts where I paid their living expenses for a full 8 months of 2005. They did an audit of 2004 and he is claiming innocent spouse. Funny thing is, it was his retirement that is screwing it up. He was the one that should have called about the 1099s AND I did enter what I KNEW about correctly.
Personally, I think he should be a man and take care of the taxes because HE is the one that withdrew the money in question long before he ever met me instead of being a little mouse hiding behind women playing a victim. I spent all the time fixing his screw ups and basically handed them to him on a silver platter because I knew that without doing so, we could never have a good life. But no, he threw it all back in my face and chose to degrade me for doing it and live in more drama.
Not only did he do it, but his little girlfriend made a whole damn webpage seperate from either of your profiles in which she chose to slam me with crap that she made up. I sat back and just laughed at it all biting my tongue to what I really wanted to say. Which is, "Hey Anti-Christ! Really you don't have a clue to what you have gotten yourself into but, you want to call me a slob and a terrible person to make yourself feel better so that you can sleep at night, go ahead! You two make a great looking pile of shit together. IT was extremely funny to see you post of pic of you kissing Gary in your apartment in Houston. YOU made all of what I said the truth despite your little webpage denying it all. You got yourself a real prize there! Yeah even the IRS didn't buy the sob story you helped Gary make up."
I can't tell you how priceless it was to get the letter from the IRS saying they weren't releasing him from the debt. That, was the best Christmas present anyone ever gave me. The other great Christmas presents that I received was hearing my former renter's voice on the phone and knowing that they picked up the guy that broke into my house. YES! the ending of this year is showing that 2007 is going to be fantastic!
Chris and I have made a friendship pact. We will have each other to lean on for the rest of our lives. Any man that wants to date me will have to undergo the "The Chris shake down" and if they don't pass, they are out. Same for any of his women. If they don't meet my standards, the are gone.
It's funny as hell to walk into a place and people say, "Who's that?" And we will tell them, "Oh that's my brother." or "That's my sister" Even though he and I dated years ago. We just know that we can trust each other. Especially, after his last marriage because I told him she was going to screw him up and she did. Just like I know what is going to happen with the other 2 mentioned in this blog.
So what have I learned this year? A lot. I have learned to let go of things. I have learned that no matter how much I try to protect persons, places or things, I have to allow things to happen. It's hard as hell to watch sometimes but my lessons were learned the hard way too. All I can do is stay steady, honest and true to myself and to the people that care the most about me.
I found that people have watched me and have used my strength as a pattern to greater understanding of themselves. Even if it is to say, "Man, I wouldn't want to have to live in her shoes for the day."
I found that I am proud of ME! I never thought I could make it on my own with 2 kids but I can. We do without a lot and even more now that it got ripped off but we can do it. I may be on the verge of bancruptcy, about to loose my childhood home but I'm happy with what I have accomplished and what I will accomplish this year.
I'm truly proud to call many of you my friends. You have no idea how much just saying, "I'm thinking about you girl" has lifted me up.
So to all of those who have really stood by me and been my friend, I wish you the best New Years ever. To those of you just here to see what I'm about happy new year to you too.
To those of you who are here to spy, well all I have to say to you is here I am! I haven't wavered. I haven't been full of jealousy and hate. I just tell it like it is. Deal with it and try to have a decent life. Oh and when they come to arrest you, have some respect for the kids and have them cuff you outside away from the children's eyes.
