I sit a lot n think ..imagine that huh...but I wonder honestly how many of the online "friends & family" actually give a rats behind as to whats goin on in your world.....well some like me do Yes i know sometimes Im moody n maybe i dont satisy EVERYONE in the way they wish but...I do try. I wrote this n thought well maybe somewhere along the way it might open some ones eyes. so here ..from me to my CT friends family fans to ALL of you .........
There are so many things in our lives that shape who we are..who we become..and who we allow ourselves to be. There are so many obstacles , trials and tribulations we all face conquer and overcome --but each lil one leaves a gap in our hearts and a hesitation in our minds. Hence the hatred and things going on between friends and strangers today. So many of us have scars not just physical scars but scars that run so deep inside it almost ruins our relationships with the outside world. Now granted the things we face in life are not always bad. We have so many smiles and joys to rejoice in that they mostly override the bad BUT for some reason the damage from the negatives run way deeper and way longer then the joy we find. I know you are probably sitting there shaking your heads thinking I've lost what little mind I had..No I haven't...I've just sat here for the past couple of weeks and watched lives shattered and so many people hurt ..OK yes I KNOW its "ONLINE"....well admit it or not there are feelings involved over the wires..some people way more emotionally involved than others but feelings and emotions just the same. And I know my lil piddly words don't make a difference but ya know it might light a spark in someone which could ignite another spark then carry on into a fire......I just wish everyone (myself included) would take a deep breath step back before they put themselves on a Holier than thou pedestal and demoralize another person. I am no better than anyone around me I can accept that and live with it and enjoy it. I just wish everyone could. I wish when people make a commitment to another person or a group they stand beside that. Any kind of group or family should be there backing one another as much as possible not sitting by idle letting a few make the moves n help out. ONE small gesture can make a world of difference. SO take time to do something for others around you . Some people you come across every day all they need is one postive encourgement to turn there whole attitude and day and maybe even life around. anyway...........
I just wanted to get this out and share my deep thinking of the day......
also in my deep thinking today I came up with this explanation of who I am --I'm sure some of you can relate to this as well........
through it all in my life it became hard for me to grow and bloom within the light....I was in my own way beautiful. My resilience , My gentleness , and my underlying strength made me beautiful if only to myself..
I am not a rose
I am not a daisy
I am not any flower you see in the bright sunshine..
I am a Moonflower
I still managed to bloom where there was no light.
Thank all of you for your time for your friendship and THANK YOU for being who you are.
I love you all dearly....
Mel
