Today I sit and think. My Brother called. I have had several add me to there lists. I can go on about this but I wont. My point is what life come to when you got your in person friends you can't live without. You got your online friends you have to talk to daily. There is miles between both types of friends. You got your family that is there but you can't say what you want. Yet you still sit there with something to say and can't say it to them in any way. Not a sole knows what feelings you are to with hold. You began to wonder are you really just alone. You can hear the spouse in the living room talking with the kids. You have ims like crazy but yet you have nothing to say. Is this part of your life where it all just ends. You are in one of those moods where nothing seems to be true. Your surrounded by the few who really care. Why must you hold it all inside is it just to have or is it to behave. I am still unaware in my young age how to deal with the emotions that come my way. Yet I must say I still need to say it or should I just keep it within me for no one else to say.
