How I Feel Today
Today is the day I call it threw. Today may be the last they see of me and you for I am so blue. I never knew today would be so gray. I wondered why I feel I live in a cave. The skies may be bright but for me they feel like night. There is no light I have to see for he took it away from me. I wonder if he even relies the pain I never share. I say since he can't see them he really don't care. We vowed to love one another some time ago; does he remember the vows we shared. How can I just walk away? For I loved him in every way. I never seen another the way I seen him in my eyes. I never let another convince me there was better and that love wasn't just a game. I loved him faithfully as he loves me falsely. I looked deep with in my soul to find myself and believe it was going to work its' self out. As of today I feel it will never change. He goes his way I go mine no communication no hellos or goodbyes, there is no I love you to say for neither of us feel that way. We now live together but miles apart. We never ask each other how was their day. We never just sit and cuddle like we did those days. All we do is fight about everything in every way. There is no I am sorry or are you ok? Theres nothing left but a gray day. Hopefully love will find its way for the two of us even if we have to go our seperate ways.
IS IT TRUE!
Though We been threw a lot We haven't been threw it all. I keep searching for answers of what there is still to come and when the happiness starts? Every passing day I had the same questions going threw my mind some was big and some was small. I thought i may never see a smile on my face just wasn't there for me I would say. Today it has changed I looked into the rear view mirror as i left that way and found my self smiling at you even though you could not see. I then began to wonder does he feel the same? I asked Myself once again is it real or just there from the pain. He lights may way threw the darkest days, but is it true what I feel or is it just from the pain. They all say love has it ways but do I love him in that way or is it just from the pain within me I say. I sit and think all day of what he would say. Does he laugh and look a way? Does he have the touch I need in so many ways? May he think the same and stop and question it in every way because I know he is in pain. Its all new to me I never felt this way. Could he love me in the right ways? Could I love him every day? They say true love will come your way it just might have something blocking its way could we both been block from the truth? Help me come to see that this may just be my true love who made me smile once again in that view. Who lifted my head up high and told me not to sigh. There is an answer for all to come just wait and see if he is the one......To be continued.
