xLx's blog: "Just to feel"

I write to try to feel

Doesn't always work out as planned

Frustrated

Conflicted

Stupid feelings

I need to write. ..I need to feel

I miss him. ..I miss her. ..

I miss them all

I need to feel

But I can't write

The pen weighs me down

Words cluttered,  jumbled,  disoriented

My head hurts

Words are gone

Fucking gone

Just like they are

Try to sleep. ..I dont want to feel

Don't want to write

I see words. ..

Not my own

Those words

Those feeling words

I read. .. reading the words

Every single word

A tear. .. another and then another tear

More words

I feel. .. Finally,  I feel the words

Writing creates feelings

Reading feels feelings

I feel. .. him