Whocares's blog: "Just in your wondering"

Sorry I haven't been on here much, been in Tennessee. She made it through the surgery fine. They had trouble with her blood pressure at first but now it is up. She has developed pneumonia, but they have been giving her some really good anti-biotic drugs and and it to where she will be able to come home Monday. This is good because now I don't have to worry about driving down there in case something was to happen. I appreciate everyone's support through all of this. I hope that everyone has a great day and just want to say thanks.

We have gotten clearance from her heart doctor and everyone else to go and do the surgery. The doctor said that it has gotten bigger and her chances of survival has went down to 25% and me and her have sat down to have the conversation about what she wants to me to do when she passes. I told her that she shouldn't talk like that and that everything will be ok, but she keeps telling me she is having the same dream about dead relatives welcoming her into a bright white house and she feels at peace there and doesn't want to leave. I fear the worse and so does my uncle. We all went out just in case something does happen. We took her to dinner at El Chico's and she felt good through her meal, but near the end she started complaining about a strange pain in her side and then passed out for 5-10 minutes. We took her to lay down at my uncles house because she didn't want to go to the hospital. We agreed that she didn't need to go to any Doctor around here since they would want to go straight in and start cutting. We were getting ready to take her to her doctor in Tennessee, but she actually got to feeling better. All we are doing is waiting for the doctors office to call with the time and date for the surgery. Will keep you informed as to what happens. Thanks for your support from everyone it does me alot. I am not usually an open person about things like this, but it seems to help right now when I have no one to turn to and talk to. I hope that everyone had a good day.

Well we just got back from the specialist today and they have told use this...the mass in her abdomen looks to be 50/50 on ovarian cancer. Bad news is even if it isn't at the rate it is growing it makes them think it is cancer and right now it is the size of a small watermelon, and if not removed she has 4-6 months to live before basically starving to death. If they do the surgery she has a 25% survival rate, which basically means there is a slim chance she won't die during surgery. That is what we know so far.

Ok...so some of my friends are a little upset that I haven't been on here as much as I use to or when I am don't usually stay long here it why. I take care of my grandmother and she has been very sick here recently. I have been taking her to the Doctor alot because they found a golf ball size tumor on her right lung and a volley ball size tumor on her ovary. They have been running blood work and everything and have said that it is cancer. I am going to have to take her to specialist to see what they can do. No doctor really wants to do surgery on her for many reasons. One she is also a heart patient and just to do the surgery they said that they would have to have a cardiologist, pathologist and a pulmonary person in the room if something started to go wrong. She hasn't been able to visit her heart doctor because of this and he believes that she also have another artery blocking off. He has put 4 stints in there so far. Not only that, but she has had some many hernia surgeries that her whole abdomen is goretex and the doctors are not wanting to really cut through it. That is what we know for know and will find out more tomorrow. So before I hear another person start calling me and wondering where the fuck I am just stop and think I might not want to fucking talk at the moment or I could be at the hospital and I don't talk on my cell while I am at a hospital. So now you know.