hearts Brians girl hearts's blog: "Junk that falls out of my brain"

You say you love me, and I know I love you But you say things to me that just aren't true "I can't live without you" "I'll do anything for you dear" You say only things you think I want to hear What about honesty? Where did that go? Am I here just for sex? Am I just your hoe? That's the only time I feel special to you Feel needed, feel pretty, like you want me, too If this is real love, and true love it seems Then why do you lie and why are you so mean? I love to love you. You mean the world to me So why do you hurt me? Can't you see? I don't want you to leave, and I'm afraid that you will Every time you're gone, my world just stands still I don't want to hurt and I don't want to cry What's wrong with giving a damn about me? Do you think you could try? If your will is strong, and you want this to last Then give it your best effort and forget the past I know it takes time, so why not start now? You know what to do, don't ask me "how?" So why can't we focus on what lies ahead? Or is it not worth it? Is this relationship dead? I know I've been wrong And not said things that I should But you started that battle And I'm done now for good. October 2005

Can you hear my heart When you wrap your arms around me? Do you feel me get weak When you kiss me? Have you seen my eyes Every time you walk near If you could hear my heart Would you want to know All the things that it would have to say All the things it would have to show? Would you want to see my soul melt Every time you touch my skin? I am powerless in your arms If you'd only let me in. My heart is yours - if you want it to have Just listen... it's beating for you. 6-9-05

I can look into your eyes And see you're not for real I know you don't mean what you say Or feel what you say you feel I know this game, I've played it before I know it all too well I know all your moves before you make them You can't hide inside your shell I can't, however, make you love me I can't make you stay So I'll just play along with you In hopes you will, someday.