At 18 with a new 1981 Pontiac Trans Am Nascar edition, What an awesome car!!! I met new friends.Life was lived a little faster. I had realities I was running from. I dated my best friends sister. She turned out to be different.My first girlfriend. In the 1980's, she was in the closet. Me? I met her at 15. I didn't know there were any other closets other than the one in my bedroom! At the same time my friend, my high school best friend ,secretly gets aliking for my mom. He gets her pregnant and that is when I find out about it.All at once!!! 18! The drama that was too great for my young mind to handle. I lost it! I whited out. I remember enough that I found myself standing on his porch with a double barrel staring him in the face while he begged me not to shoot him. His mother came out and joined in on the pleas. I lowered the gun and turned and walked away on a friendship forever for the first time in my life. I found Charlie. The next phase of my troubled path. Through him, I learned that life was just a party.The music of the time that you hear 25 years later was top hits!!! Cocaine,clapton. Bon Jovi,Def Leppard,seen em twice in Hotttlanta!!! Wow! What a RUSH, Tom Sawyer!!! Tom Cruise was Risky Business and the Young Guns Blazed in glory!!! I melted into the Rock n' Roll of that time.It was music to my sad cafe. But I was young and life was the long country road that is now a super highway. Cruising the streets at night to R.E.O Speedwagon and into Panama City with Van Halen blaring with the ttops off. My joyride would soon end with a sickening crash! We had one of our famous parties on a Friday night in june. We ran out of liquor and you had to go a county over in Ga at that time to get it. Normally,I would be the one sober enough to drive.Not that night. I was tripping and near passed out on the floor. My brother took my car and went after the drink. I was sober as a graveyard when a tow truck pulled in the yard with my demolished! Now i don't know if you have had the pleasure of seeing one of those beauties in person, but imagine riding in one or owning it.It was my bride and we were on our honeymoon! I loved that car. Losing it was the straw that broke the camel's back. I went into full blown escape mode. L.s.d {sunshine!} qualudes{7 foteen!} and canadian mist with sprite! I was in The Zone for months on end.There is about 6 months out of that year I can't even remember. Not long after,I was busted for supporting my habit. I went through detox in prison! Man. What a bummer that was.Now 6 years later I was reading a bible.
