It's just like a dream to me
That some how came to me
I see u as I sleep
I see u as I rise in the morning
I see u as I pass out in bed
I now praise that I know u
When I see u I gaze in your eyes
I try to see your thoughts
I wish I can open up more with u but it's hard
Because I'm afraid…
Afraid of crying because of what I see and feel
The pain is just too real
Every time I see my mother's murder
It's like I'm getting murdered
I'm getting stabbed over and over in the same places as she is
I can feel her pain every time the knife hits her
I feel how much its hurts
I see her crying and screaming for help
But it's to late...
She is gone
She is buried
Carried by the lord up to his world of happiness
When I first knew she was gone I had hope of her coming back
But as the days increased
My tears increased
And somehow I knew something bad has happened to her
But I still had hope of her coming back
So id sit by the front door crying…
Waiting for her to walk through
And me to be able to jump into her arms…
I still sit by the door hoping it was a mistake
Hoping she will walk through and me being able to hold her
After 10 years of not seeing my mother or holding her
Its finally coming to me that there is no chance that I will ever see my mother again
So I lay in my bed in tears
Wishing she were here
Then my life would be so much better