This pain is just to real
The things I feel and the things I need
Are not here
So every now and then I drop a tear
I cant sleep I just seem to weep
Im trying to forget those bad memories and those nightmares
But they keep coming
So I keep hiding.
Nobody here is confiding
So I keep crying remembering those nightmares
My mother in heaven is sighing
because im falling in her footsteps
if there is a god
I don't think he is a good god
Because everything I wish for never comes true
I wish I had some clue to y this happened to me
Its just to real..
So I seal my heart
My thoughts
And my life in an envelope
Where only I can know what they say.
Someday everything will be better
But not soon
I just thought I would have a mother when I grew up.
But I guess I screwed up and god took her from me..
I just don't see any life for me.