i can't stop worrying and i can't stop being all fucking emo. and i don't know what to do and im a fucking mess. why can love hurt so much because its so strong. i wish there was a pill that could make u just not feel anything for 10 minutes . ten minutes of relief would be wonderful. i might be miserable right now but I wouldn't trade my love for him for my hurt. but im worried because we have no way to get ahold of eachother right now. its crazy. i just wanna hit myself in the chest and see if my heart stops. but it won't . make it stop hurting. please. i can't handle it . please.