Minion's blog: "Insomnia is such a whore"

I'm sure at some point in my life I'm going to get used to the idea that I can't sleep when I want to. I have to spend the great majority of my time wearing myself out in hopes that exhaustion will put me to bed. Could I be more productive? Possibly but then I need a more structured regimen of sleep. Honestly can someone help me get organized because I'm obviously doing a horrible job of keeping myself busy and it actually amounting to anything. I need to make a list of things that I need to get done and make sure that I actually get them done. I think on my list I need to add finding some sort of drug or activity that will allow me to sleep comfortably. Drinking to the point of passing out may put me out for the night but the mornings are not very pleasant.

There is far too much crap going on in my life to let me sleep without worrying about it. I'm not even sure what to think about anymore. What makes it even worse is that I'm starting to have nightmares again. Not the kind of nightmares where something is chasing you down a dark alleyway or anything like that but the ones where friends die or I fall in love and the girl calls me a worthless piece of shit and I'm wasting my time (FYI: that's the most recent one) Regardless my brain is being racked by all this crap and it keeps me awake. I mean who would really want to sleep with all this going on. I guess I could hope that I get another random call about a job I've been wanting, only to find out they've called the wrong person. I hate that cliche that tomorrow will be a better day because it just seems to make me think that today must suck compared to a future I can't tell from the present due to a lack of sleep.