If you really want to know me then you must understand the things that come alone with me .
First there's a word that you must look up and study.That word is "ostomy"you will need to look in the medical dictionary for this. May find it others but to get the full meaning yep medical.
Let me give the information for some of you anyways... it is An operation to create an opening from an area inside the body to the outside.The surgical construction of an artificial anus between the colon and the surface of the abdomen. There procedure is indicated as part of the treatment of some cases of diverticulitis, Crohn's disease, ulcerative colitis, colon cancer and intestinal obstruction.
Ok out the list of reasons mine is colon cancer. I have dealt with this for almost 4 years. There's nothing they can do for the cancer but keep me happy and try to be pain free. Sometimes that works and sometimes it doesn't.
Though out the last 4 years I have found some great friends with my family to help me make it. It's funny to live your life like that song that TIM McGRAW sings LIVE LIKE YOUR DIEING.
Meet my soon to be Ex Husband in 2000. Felt that I had my prince charming . We shared the kind of love that I and others thought would never end . Two years into out marriage is when the cancer hit. Well here it is 4 years later and he walked in Nov. of last year. He said that he could no longer deal with the cancer or with the way it had scraed my body and funny to say but I understand that. Not saying that my world felt like it was at a end.
So here I am 41 ready to turn 42 , two great kids that are grown and starting over with all the odds agasint me. What odds .. the odds of finding that someone thats for real.
I'm lucky to have such great children , they have been with me thoug thick and thin. They've seen a side of life that most kids never see and they also know what it's like to wonder where the next meal will come from and where they are going to sleep the next day.
I'm not saying it's like that now but when they were growing up it was very much like that . Maybe that's what brought us so close , the bond that I and my children have is unbreakable and unshakeable. I love them both thier my world.
Ok with everything going agasint me let start by saying that yes I can still love and long to be loved.
Even though I have my children and my mom , I find myself very lonely at tiems. I want and long to feel that touch of a man . A man that will except me for me and not be ashame of me for what I may have wronge with me body wise.
To find that person that is willing to curl up on the couch for a movie , a nice dinner cooked at home and then some alone time just him and I. That enjoys going out sometimes and isn't ashame for his friends to know that he spends time with me or what my health problems may be .
No I do not set here and dwell on it. I do not set around and poor me all the time. The only thing that I do have a problem with is that fact of being alone. With out that touch or kiss or just to be held.
So after you have read this comment , I'd love to know what most of you think. Don't worry your not going to hurt my feelings. But I felt it was time to post this and let you know what's going on with my body wise that way you will not think that your getting a super star and then find the body to something that doesn't match.
I'm 5'5 and weight is right at 190. I have dark blonde hair use to be real light till it fell out and came back in dark. I'm green eyes, I need to have them checked but still there green.
So there study on that word and then hit me up . Its just something that some of you have never heard of and others know what it is and what it's like to deal with .
Catch you all later take care till then ...
Lisa
