If You loved me so much, why did You leave me?
If You said that You would never frown and walk away, then why are You not here right now?
If You really cared, why haven’t I heard from You in months?
If I was Your babygirl, why did You abandon me?
If You dreamed of me being Your wife and having Your child, why did You disappear out of my life without a trace?
As I write this, my heart is squeezed with a mix of resentment, tears and anger and the thought that is still alive in my head that tells me that You never cared to begin with.
You don’t know how much I hurt inside. You have no idea how much I miss You everyday of my life; how many times I wonder if You are coming back or if it really was over. You have no idea how many nights I have cried myself to sleep because of You. The loneliness is killing me. Sometimes I think that the only way to get rid of You forever, forget all the feelings I had for You, is to take a knife and puncture my skin, seeing the blood that trickled through my veins spill out over the kitchen tile as You, Yourself seep out also.
But I still hold on. For some strange reason I can’t resign my love to You. I don’t think I ever will…
