I used to look up at the sky, wonder and ask why. Some nights not sleep much at all, look for someone to hear my call. All those nights and unanswered cries inside at times ready to fall. I'm tired of this, and often don't even try. I wonder in my head often, why should I keep looking if noone accepts me? I don't try cause theres no time, no room for me to hurt. I thought it was love years ago, I was wrong. I asked to be the only guy she'd see, instead you see she lied to me.
I became so hurt,I decided to be alone, and stay, instead between now and then a few friends came along my way. I'm putting one foot in front of the other, I'm hoping I've found a new other, one who won't give me shit or misery. One not to abuse a man, instead one to defend him, and to stand up and take a stand. Only time'll tell, only time can see if in a years time I'll have found her or if shes found me. If not I guess I'll go back to the boards, go back to my lyrical lab, once again forever more.
