I've been so hurt so many times. I'm so afraid
he's going to hurt me. That, maybe, he doesn't really love
me. I'm afraid all he wants is someone to call forth his mother, to be her and allow their incest to thrive. I am scared. I'm scared of loving for fear of hurt, yet I love him, and I can't let go. I wish I could let go of the pain. Sometimes he looks at me like he hates me. Why? He says he loves me. Does he realize what I've give up for him? I hope he will.
Maybe it's just me?
