It's amazing when you cut your losses, how beautiful everything can be.
And I'm doing just that. Cutting the negative bullshit out of my life, and letting the chips fall where they may. I was silly, delusional, even, to think that ANYONE could fix me, help me, or do anything for me. I have the power. In my self. I have the power. I have the power! I don't need anyone to listen, I don't need anyone to be there. All I need is myself. I do not need flippant people in my life who can't handle when the going gets tough, and I don't need people in my life who don't understand, or who don't even bother trying to understanding. I don't need that juvenilehighschoolbullshit. I'd rather stick my two inch cock through a cheese grater, balls too.
I'm climbing, and I'm evolving. I'm back to where I was four years ago, and it's beautiful. I cannot believe I got scared and turned away. I can't believe I got so fucking uncomfortable with being this way, that I turned right 'round and walked away from it. People come and go, people are worthless, but evolution is neither of those things. AND NO, I AM NOT DELUSIONAL OR INSANE! I may have a messianic complex, but don't we all.
I don't need weak people in my life. I don't need people who can't STAND UP and deal with the shit tossed their way. I did it for too fucking long, and I'll be GODdamned if i do it anymore. I'm not weak. I'm strong. I'm better than this. I'm better than you. Haha! You think you know, but you have no fucking idea.
Let the chips fall where they may
Christopher.
