GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Current mood: accomplished
i moved to get away. i thought i had to. i figured it was the only way i was gonna figure shit out and fix myself. i thought i needed to b alone. i thought i needed the silence. ive been here lil over a week now. I WAS WRONG. granted, i have figured a few things out. but for the most part i figured out, i didnt have to leave to fix shit. i just needed to quit listening to everyone else. i didnt have to go so far away to learn. i needed to cut myself off from the people that werent helping. the ones that were making shit worse, and making me question myself. i thought my lyfe was fuckd up beyond repair. but now i realize i instead of looking for others to change it I should have been the one changing it. but im starting to understand now and i belive ive cut out the ones that were hurting me. i belive i still have a ways to go b4 im me again, if thats at all possible. maybe i can only b a part of my former self. i dont know. i do know that when im done i WILL B HAPPY. i have to b. but i guess i wont really know until i get back in "my world" and have to b around those that hurt. and for now i just hope that when that day comes i will survive with a smile.
