All I've got to say is...I know my self-esteem is a bit less-than...but shit God damn...
I'm planning to not "hook-up" or put myself on the relationship market until I move out of Cody's place...b/c he's being rather...insane...last night he asked me if we were going to grow old together...my reply..."No; women mature faster than men...thats why I'm moving..." And if half his lil buds are around he's his usual jackass self to me but if certain male friends are around he's all over me...or attempting to be...stupid crap...
But...
AREN'T I WORTH A LIL MORE THAN JUST BEING USED FOR SEX?!
I mean hell if I'm viewed as sexy yay me...I just wish someone gave a rats ass about me...yeah...ME...
6...six guys are trying to do this to me...luckily I've gotten used to this so even though feelings tend to bubble up in me now n then(3 of the 6 lol)...I've gotten skilled at pushing them back down and forgetting...and am slowly becoming all the more skilled at not developing feelings to begin with...
Guess there will always be times when people get the best of me...and the "he likes me he really likes me?" will turn to "oh...he likes my ass is all..."
I know I have special pics on here but they're not THAT special...In fact the point of the pics was to try and get myself over being ashamed of my bleh body...didn't work...made me ashamed to even exsist...
*by feelings I don't mean "omg im in love" i mean silly kiddy crushy shits...
*also I'm not referring to all the males I know...and a few of the 6 are not even on CT...
