I'm not supose
To Love you
my heart was
to have ceased beating
more then a year ago
and yet
with every hour
of every day that passes
and with every breath
that i take
my heart
still wants you
memories
play upon my mind
as this cancer
called love
eats away the ice
i put my heart in
after you walked
out mine door
be still these thoughts
these yearnings
for you to be
in my arms
take me back
to before
i knew you
to before i knew
the sweet smell
of roses in full bloom
of moonlit walks
of dancing
to music
only our hearts could hear
bring back the pain
for the one i lost
because her death
is far better
then being left
being forgotten
fore just when
i have the stregnth
to love again
i hear your voice
upon my phone
destroying
any safety
i felt
in moving on
leaving me
with the guilt
of still loving you
close that chapter
of my life
rewrite my memories
to disclude your eyes
in the moonlight
the scent of your hair
left upon my pillow
im not suppose
to love you
i fought that battle
i thought i had won
and just when i grew strong
you remind me
of how weak
i trully am
im not suppose to love you
im suppose to have moved on
but with every rose
i am reminded of your beauty
with every face i see
i find your smile
im not suppose to love you
but i do
and always will
