“My Wishing Star” (Living a Lie) by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1999
Published 8 November 2005 :: Poetry
You were my guiding light
My angel eyes
Matching thine angel face
You were my only desire
The only thing
I wished for
And was powerless
To make come true
The stars above
Call forth a meaning
Never before set before me
By thine heart
Lain upon he ground
Drawn lightly within the sand
Where upon this concept
Was I lost
And turned away
How can I find my way back
How can I revive
What was based on a dream
Heart afire
Hidden desires
And still you know not
How I feel
Would it change the world
If this ring upon your finger
I place
And those lips
I embrace
Living a lie
How simple it was to do
When I didn’t know you
When I hadn’t seen you
Before . . .
Star within the night
Please give back my sight
I sold my soul
To the gate of hell
For a chance at love
And you gave me her
Only for those gates
To win her away
To carry her heart
To her hands
Ripped from me
As ripped she will see
And still upon her finger
I would give
This tiny little ring
Because I haven’t a heart worthy of her
And still upon her finger
I would place
This shining circle of gold
Because I haven’t a heart pure enough
Stars placed
Within thine jars
Give me a way
To show her my love
Give me a way
To tell her I love you
And make her happy
Like I only wanted to do
Living a lie
How simple it was to do
When I didn’t know you
When I hadn’t seen you
Before . . .
Before this day was set
When my heart you would steal
I found life so much easier
If I were only a character
Played to the definition of envy
And then you came
And stole the part
Of mine lady Scarlet
And then you came
With your angelic wings
And picked me off my feet
With just the touch of your lips
The music of my heart still plays
Its rhythm so blue in tone
Its beat so known
Yet still I cannot hear it
So how could you
“How could you say you’d love me forever
Forever is a long time...”
Because I believe
I’ve loved you all my life
Even when all you were
Was my wishing star
Living a lie
How simple it was to do
When I didn’t know you
When I hadn’t seen you
Before . . .
Before I fell in love
