Me and my supposed future FL roomie got into a REALLY big fight. Words were exchanged that probably shouldn't have been. In other words, I let my emotions get the best of me. I had a head injury (brain contusion. my brain was bleeding) not 4 months ago and the stress of the move, my anxiety, and my feelings for this person was what caused me to crack. I think I shall start becoming emotionless again. It saves me from the heart ache of dealing with people. I hate feeling like this. Dead inside. And I really do want to go live with him. We have a long history together. Even if not romantically I still value his friendship and want to see him succeed. He's unfortunately blocked me from most of his profiles and messengers. so I can't even really explain myself properly. That and I've been a total wreck since it all went down this morning. I wish I could tell him but I fear it is too late. Oh well. I guess I have other options. But it still hurts and sucks. And I miss him terribly. I just wish things could have turned out differently. Grr.
So yea. I feel like shit. And I have no money. I wanted to buy a blast today and low and behold I have no money in the bank. DAMN! I guess it goes right along with my day...
