Shorty's blog: "I dont know"

OMFG what the hell I don't know anymore My ex Jake thinks im trying to break him an his girl up when I'm not. I'm happy that he is with someone that he is happy with. The dude needs to get over it cause its really starting to piss me off cause he dont relize anything. Everything has to go his way or no way at all. Damn now that I look at it. I feel sorry for my self cause I was his ex an was stupid enough to fall in love for him. WHAT THE HELL WAS I thinking? Any sugestions?? HELP

I'm really getting sick of these fucken little games. First off I didnt do shit to HOLLY TESCH. So now she gotta start shit. All I did was tell her the truth about her man cheating on her with my best friend. 2nd of all, my ex Jake he still dont beleive me that I'm happy for him. He is with someone that he loves an wanna spend the rest of his life with an thats great. He still dont understand the point I just wanna be friends but yet he gotta talk shit about me an my friends. Yea I do find out Its a small little world. For real PEOPLE I am 20 years old and have been raised as an adult since I was 8. I want to find the right guy that I will get along with an we like eachother for who we are. Right Now im really thinking about saying goodbye to MYSPACE AND CHERRYTAP. No one beleives me. Expecally when I put this on my Fathers an Grandpas ashes an my unborn child.

I hate the fucken hoildays. WISH THEY NEVER CAME AROUND AT ALL, of my father was still here. I'm sick of life these days or shall I say since my fathers been gone. I hate it all. I told my Grandma maybe I should drink my life away. There has been rumors going around saying that I'm an alcholic or pregnant. I dont drink usally an HELL NO I aint Pg. I will when I find the right guy that actually wants me for who I am an dont want me for sex. Why do we even have a life if we dont have the people who we loved our whole lives! My fucken crack of a mother ya I called her to see if she can run me to the store cause I dont have a car right now. Yes a deer hit my driver side an totaled it almost 2 months ago, and she said no I dont have time for u kids. Isnt that an fucken nice mother! I DONT THINK SO. My godparents are very awsome I look at them as my parents but hate to bother them all the time for things cause they have a life to. I wish I wasnt single anymore 2 in a half years being single is too damn long. Well thats my feelings for the last week now an going to be til this FUCKED UP YEAR is done!