Not much has changed. I went to the general doc yesterday and was told I have a sinus infection. I also got a flu shot. I asked him if it was a good idea to get one because I heard conflicting stories on it and he said that he'd check then he came back and said yeah it's a good idea to get one. So other than a sore arm I'm fine.
Lately I've been wanting to eat everything in sight and in mind. I better be careful because last week I gained 4 3/4 lbs!! I'm getting anxious for the baby's due date to get here sooner. Still three long months to go! Only about 112 days though and about 16 weeks. Doesn't add up right does it? If I'm 6 months and have 16 more weeks to go that would be 4 months.. But the way they look at it is that I'm in my 6th month not necessarily 6 months along but in my 6th month if that makes any sense. So at the end of this month I will be in my third trimester! Pretty cool huh? I just hope she doesn't weigh too much! I don't want her to weigh too much or too little. I don't want her so small that she has problems but small enough to where she is healthy just not a big baby. My worst nightmare is a big baby. I think it's so sad when people have them. It's like you miss out on their cute little newborn baby stage you know? It's almost like you start out with a 3 month old or something and that just sucks. I'd be happy with a 5-7 lb baby. No more or less than that lol
I'm still scared about what happened a couple months ago.. In a nearby town a woman about my age (I think she was 21 or 22) had a baby girl (This was her second child) and some woman knocked on her door. She answered the door and the woman asked to use her phone. So she gave her the cordless phone and she proceeded to brutally attack the mother with a knife and knocked her unconcious then locked her in her bathroom. She stole the newborn baby and left the one year old baby unharmed. The poor mother had to go through emergency surgery and flown by helicopter just to survive. It had a happy ending when she got her baby back unharmed. But it makes me worry you know. The woman turned out to have had a stillborn baby earlier that morning and stole the baby to pass it off as her own. Sad story all the way around really. Except that they got the baby back safely. The mother had the same OB/GYN as I do and everything! Scary when things like this hit close to home.
In other news my sex life officially sucks lol We've hit a really dry spot and I don't know if John even realizes it or not. He seems to get his jollies off so to speak and don't care so much about the effort he puts into it anymore. (Or at least that's my take on it)Oh well we aren't even supposed to be having sex per doctor's orders so I guess I should count my blessings. I just don't get turned on instantly anymore it takes me awhile to warm up sometimes and he just seems to want to jump right into it. I use my vibrator because it gets me wet so that I'm ready for action. He closes his eyes and ignores me the whole time I'm using it and he even goes soft. I hate to say it but it hurts my feelings. Tomorrow we have reserved a hotel suite with a jaccuzi, so maybe that will spice things up a bit. Another dry spot is our relationship it's gone kinda flat and that's not normal for a couple that hasn't even been together a year. It's just that he plays computer games whenever he's home and stays up all night till about 6 or 7 am and then keeps waking me up by him being up doing stuff. I can't seem to sleep very well lately anyway. All I do seem to do good is eat. I'm starting to get depressed about my weight. I'm up to 230 lbs, give or take a pound. Much more and I'll be close to 300 lbs or at least 250 :( I hope I don't gain too much more weight. I know it's a silly thing to worry about when your pregnant but it's not easy when your already overweight to see the scale keep creeping upward you know? Could it be that John doesn't find me attractive anymore? He says he does but that's just because he fears for his safety lol (Not that I would hurt him but you know how men get when women have hormonal issues going on) My back is really starting to kill me. I already had enough back problems but now they are getting worse because of my big uterus! It could be worse with the weight gain..I mean I lost quite a bit in the beginning of the pregnancy (About 11 or 12 lbs) so I guess it's only fair for it to catch up with me. I'm at the same weight I was when I first got pregnant so I can't really complain.(Kinda makes me miss morning sickness just for the weight loss lol)Oh I still get morning sickness every now and then but very rarely anymore. Ok enough rambling I'm going to close this for now my back hurts.
