I'm really getting tired of the way my family is treating me. Here I am in a high risk pregnancy and I start having severe pains and spotting the other night. So I call John and tell him. He tries to get ahold of his family to take me to the hospital since my car wasn't working. He wasn't successful at first so he suggested I call my mom. Well for those of you that know anything about my mom know that was a mistake. She told me that I need to get a tougher skin and deal with the fact I'm pregnant and I'm going to have aches and pains. Ok she's right you do have your share of aches and pains during even a healthy pregnancy. However I'm on restriction and any change at all I am supposed to report immediately to my doctor. So I called the doctor's exchange and sure enough the doctor on call wanted me to to be seen at the hospital. They couldn't find out what was wrong but I think now that I have an infection that I will need to get checked out. (They didn't check for that at the hospital)So anyway my blood pressure is through the roof which is totally abnormal for me. My pulse is very high, which unfortunetly, is normal for me. I've been having low grade fevers and pain. So I shouldn't be concerned?? So I see my grandma today, because I had to drop off my cat due to them spraying for bugs tomorrow. On the way out I ask if I can borrow a couple dollars for gas and I'll pay her back on Friday. She acts like it's a big deal and inconvenience and makes me feel like shit on the bottom of a shoe. Also I took my blood pressure there and it was high. I was concerned but she acted the same way as my mom.
I'm also pissed, on another note, about the fact people are wanting to buy stuff for the baby from my registry but don't want to get the items I put on there. Well then don't buy them! That's all I can say. Most of the items I picked out special and if you don't like that then buy something different on the list or nothing at all. They are also bitching because alot of items can only be found online. Ok who doesn't have a computer in this day and age? You can request the item be sent to the store if you really wanted. Also some of the items lie and say they are only available online but I've found them in the store. So anyway it's frustrating.
I don't know if I'm going to be moving or not now. To be honest I don't really like the trailer. To be completely honest I don't really want to live in a trailer period, but if I do I want it to be at least a bigger place than I have now. I mean the trailer we are thinking about renting really isn't much more space than we already have. And twice as much money! Also they don't want me having a cat. Well I'm not moving without Gary that's as simple as that. I don't know sometimes I swear nothing ever goes right and nobody even cares about me. I mean REALLY cares about me. I know John does on his own level but that's it. Half the time when I talk people ignore me anyway. That hurts you know. Well nobody probably even read this so no sense in going on. I need to lay down anyway.
