people say never hurt the ones you love and i did not on purpose or anything like that i never ever wanted to hurt her but that can change the fact what happend was is i went out to a friends house and there was drinking and stuff like that i drank some sure i never thought of passing it up but apperently i drank to much cause i dont remember the night but i went home thinking nothing about it and a couple days later i got a call from the cops asking me to come into talk so i did thinking nothing about the couple nights before so i get there and get in and talkto the detective and he tells me what its about and i was like it couldnt have happend like that but none the less i was arrested on sit and realesed that night so i went to see the love of my life that night we talked about it all and still i didnt remember that night we got in alot of fights after that and the trust went out the window later down the road after the trial was underway things had changed for the worse between me and her so i took a bargin to keep myself out of jail and it put me on probation and took my whole life away you see first was the rules then came to me and my girl and he said no to me seeing her but i did anyways and it turned out to be a bad thing see me and her seperated and went our seperate ways and the next day i went to see my probation officer and he threw me in jail i sat and i sat in that dreadful place thinking what did i do to deserve all of this then came the day when tim came to see me see thats my p.o. timothy sperling he asked if i learned from being in that place i said yes and told him what i had thought about in my cell at night so he released that day and i was on my way i went to get smokes cause one i despritly needed then went to see my mom and saprise her that i was out it hurt so bad knowing things between me and my love ended so bad i sat day after day wishin i was dead i cut my wrist and shoulder too still nothing would make the pain stray from my heart then i found my love was in the arms of another man and i hurt just knowing that then i got the news it was my best friend oh how that hurt like a thousand knifes in the back i cut and i cut there was no turning back till one day i sit blood dripping off my wrist and thought to myself how could i of ended up like this to be all alone with no one to love just an empty soul of the man i once was then to think i once had it all and in the blink of an eye it was all gone see i said the words i pushed her away i said the words that still hurt her to this day but then something good finally happend to me see my friend got me talking to my lover i lost so long ago and we sat and talk and talked some more now my love has returned to me and i love her once more but the hurts still there i dont think it will ever go i hurt her deep just like cuts on her soul i try to mend what i have done but to this day i dont know if i have succeded but i'll try till i do cause i aint never gonna leave her again
