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on the darkest side of my mind my deepest secrets hide my does love hurt my love is caught up in a story of a poem something is just not right when your near when love seems to loose its meaning on the darkest side of my mind my deepest secrets hide and why i dont know i do stupid things but i dont care if its not right when love seems to loose its meaning on thedarkest side of my mind my deepest secrets hide sometimes i cry when i dont have a reason to feel this way sometimes i cry cause i dont understand when love looses its meaning i'll have no secrets on the dark side of my mind (old poem)

Hes a fuckhead a moron nothing but scum hes stupid an idiot dumber then dumb hes needs a life stupid fucked up loser get away from me right now no one wants u around I hate you cant stand you wish you were dead piss off loser bloody fuckhead your a mental retard with nothing else better to do you ruin others lifes like u ruined ur own go to hell loser you caused me sorrow and it wil catch up with ypu then it will be my turn to laugh at ur woes hope it hurts kills and burns your a FUCKHEAD ( old poem of mine)

Hearts on fire starts in eyes laughter, tears wishes, dreams we stand as one together we shine together we share as one we unite our love will stand through it all our hands intwinded our lives we live you and I as one ( another old poem)

Sometimes I feel life just aint worth living times have changed without me they left me behind without a backwards glance a long time ago my heart broke my soul died and my spirit got disheartened my eyes had cried their last tears away before I had cried my last sometimes I feel lifes to hard to battle against its one big struggle from birth to death everyones out to look after themselces but who will look after me me? who time forgot have you ever tried to end it all? but found you couldnt pick up the knife or hold your head underwater long enough the guilt of these thoughts and actions cant even penetrate my dead soul once I tried to laugh but found I couldnt I tried to chase the clouds away but tge colour was gone my world way grey I couldnt laugh, i couldnt cry I'm like a dead ship drifting on a sea of relentless emotions

Darkness surrounds me like a cloud a cloak of understanding no judgement for my crimes compassion for my troubles prodviding a realse from my torment I sleep the sleep of the dead my mind wanders boundlessly dream Ceaselessly and I am free In my dreams i am loved in my dreams i am happy then the light tears me from my escape tear drops fall as I wait for night once more ( old poem of mine)

( this is a old poem of mine) Life has become to hard I feel worthless, Unappricated I have no meaning why am i even here? I am alone, depressed, suicidal I am in my darkest hour I want to take a knife and hold it to my throat slide it deep and slow across my tender throat I feel the blood slide down my neck, my chest I fall to the ground I lay still I feel the sensation of peace blackness surrounds me sounds become distant my rapid breathing begins to slow my heart is almost non exsistant my soul rasies from my body I feel light, happy , complete death has dawn death is my savour I am now at peace

Thinking Thinking ahead Am I going to die tomorrow? Am I going to lose you? To lose them? Thinking back All my regrets It wasn't my fault Was it? Could I have changed it? Helped that Or even stopped it... Thinking now I don't want To make the same Mistakes again But yes, Start over Erase my past But if I do, I would be no-one, Nothing I am no-one I am nothing Thinking... I just want My life Back

how can i sleep tonight? how how can i when i no i am going to wake up the same way tomorrow? i fear tomorrow... i no im going to wake up to this life of mine in which i wished was just an illusion just a dream all day i go without a simple hello which would simply make my day just to see and hear someone say i care, ill be there maybe just maybe someone who loved me? is that to much to ask? if it is im sorry its not like i ever asked for anything else the loneliness kills me all day i go and no one ever knows im crying on the inside I CANT EVEN PRETEND ANYMORE! I CANT FUCKIN FAKE A SMILE I CANT FUCKING FAKE IM OK... people lie to me people cheat me ....when all i want is for them to be a friend IM SORRY I DONT NO WHAT I DID BUT I APOLOGIZE ...for everything ive done everything i havent done ...everything i have yet to do i am terrified i dont know wat to do with wat im feeling who can i talk to if i have no one? i only no to hurt myself. i only no to cut and carve wat i feel... all my pain all my depression all my agression into me my legs, my wrists, my arms.. oh god why me... just kill me oh god why me... JUST FUCKING TAKE AWAY MY LIFE OF MISERY wat person derserves to live like this.... im not a person im worthless shit... im just a waste, i dont want to continue to live if i'll never be something or someone my fear of tomorrow has overtaken and won.