I am in one of my moods today.I am so flustrated {yea that to}having to look at someone while smileing and saying yes,I know,,,you"re right ,,,when all I want to say is Fawk-off will you you stupid idiot..Sometimes I get tired of trying to be nice,especially when the bitch is screaming to get out. So from this moment on, I am refusing to sugar coat anything ever again.Talking to a friend over this past weekend and her reminding me of how I used to be has got me thinking.
Something else dawned on me, I know that I do not want to get married again anytime soon,but I do miss having a man in my life. I’ve always liked the idea of having someone who finds the same things funny that I do, who can laugh along with me at this difficult, wonderful, crazy, perplexing thing I call "life." I love love love a sense of humor in a man. What will always get me is the guy who almost seems to be trying to keep a lid on it and just can't help muttering something that he knows could get him in trouble. THE OH BOY I"m in trouble now thing.Don"t get me wrong I do love being in love but right now I just want to to be a bitch. I want to look firmly into a guys eyes when I tell him I want him to "f*ck me hard!"or to be able to say to him "No, not there. No, NOT THERE. A little lower, there you go. Right there. Right there. Yes. Right there. Yes. Yes. Yes! Don't stop! Yes. Right there! Oh you super giant gentle stud! Yes! Yes! Yes..
YEA I"m in a mood............
