MFKN Raistlin's blog: "High Sorcery"

So I am sure that most people in this world are going to think that this is all bullshit along with Wicca, and Tarot. Go right ahead, because this is about one of the biggest curses I have known in this lifetime. Basically if you do not believe in it, then I do not care.

What do I mean by empathy? I mean that there are people in this life that are cursed to feel the emotions of others. I have personally had days where I went from a great happy mood to being totally depressed because of another person's emotions. Over the years I have learned to sort out what it my emotion and what belongs to others for the most part. For example, I am sure a few of you recall Shayne/Elf right? I remember being overcame one day by the most horrible sadness, and loneliness, and missing someone. I knew this was not me, and realized it was just my empathy. I wrote down the date and time, and that I thought it was him missing me. Of course he called the next day, and asked me if I felt him missing me the day before. We had not spoken in months at that time.

Well there are also times when I can project my emotions without meaning to do so. Side not if we are fighting, and I try to walk away, then let me because I know that I can project and amplify a fight. Without meaning to do so. Sadness is something I do bottle up actually, and from time to time, it will sneak out into another empath. Back in high school, there was a guy named Ronnie. He was my first crush, and he did not take it well when I told him I might be gay or bi. I wanted to cry, and wanted to just die. Then there was my fellow Pisces friend, Brian. I will never forget him just starting to cry, and asking me why he was crying. I also noticed that my pain started to evaporate.  I projected or he recieved my pain, and it expressed itself through him.

Well I work with this guy now that has claimed to be an empath. Well he came up to me tonight crying, and asking me if I was the reason he was feeling depressed and crying. Not that I would have ever shown it, or expressed, it but yes, I felt rather depressed today. Just like before my own pain started to evaporate and vanish from me. I spoke to him about it later in the night, and he said he never wanted to feel that sad again..ever.

empathy fucking sucks btw!!

So I know that I mentioned in my last blog in this folder of blogs that I was being considered as a student in Wicca. Well the good news is in as of today, that I have been accepted as a student.  I have a teacher now.

Now I am sure that is Greek to a lot of you, so I will try to give you a basic understanding of this. There are a lot of ways that one can learn Wicca, or Witchcraft in this day and age.  You can learn from books, online courses,  the elements, or even from another person. Now when you learn from another person, you would usually learn from someone with at least their second Wiccan degree. Degrees are a mark and measure of your path and journey as Wiccan clergy. There are three degrees, and one is not allowed to teach until such a time, that they complete a second degree. I am now just starting my first Wiccan degree.

And as you can guess, a teacher does not accept just anyone as a student. I've been accepted, and this is someone that I have known since high school actually. I am going to be her first student. And in her tradition it is customery for a student and a teacher to exchange gifts. She gave me what she used as her first Book of Shadows. It has fresh blank pages in it, but it is just beautiful, and I feel so honored, that she would pass that on to me. I am sure you know what a Book of Shadows is right? Not as flashy as on Charmed, but the same general basic idea. Anyways, if you have any questions, feel free to ask, and I will post a pic below of the said book.



Anyways, this is something I have wanted for a very long time now, (to find a teacher) so congratulate me already. ;)

So I am going to start this by stating that I am a Wiccan, and have been reading, and studying on my own for the past 17 or so years of my life. This does cover a lot of different topics, and things from a lot of different authors. I have also been attending pagan gatherings since sometime in early 2004. I have always wanted to learn under another person though, and truly learn the Craft as it was intended to be taught from teacher to student. I now have this oppertunity in my life, and am excited to be learning from someone that holds their Second degree in the Gardenerian tradition of Witchcraft.

I have known this person since high school, and college, and recenty asked her if she would consider taking me as a student. After a few  days we spoke again, and explained that yes, she would take me as a student. She also explained that she has not done this before, and that she is a bit nervous herself, but that we would work it out. She also explained that it is traditional that a student makes three requests before the teacher officially accepts the student. She told me that the first request was oral, that the second should be written, and the third in person. She also suggested that I take a few days to work on the written request, and suggested taking my time, since she knows I work full time.

Anyways, I have been working on it about a week now, and I have completed the letter now. I am excited, and looking foward to mailing it out tomorrow. Just wanted to share this, and this particular blog will probably be related more so to my Wiccan studies, and things of that ilk.

Blessings to all.