chain smoking pill popping drunken insanity's blog: "Hey ya'll im new..whatda think?"

nope not for me. so who wants to come out and play? i gots toys....mwhahahahaha

that i dont really give a shit? well if u didnt u do now.see heres the thing,i only realyl care about what happens in this crazy ass cyber world when i log on to my computer,and even then im more conserned with the music im downloading and mixing than anything else.so why do u people insist on trying to be hardcore and whatnot with your keyboard,see i get up very very early in the morning,ride my horse,get ready for work,then work 8-12 hours everyday,6 days a week.so being on here is almost like a stress reliever,and helps me forget about all the stupid shit that happened throughout my day.so why may i ask do u want to try and hurt my feelings,btw,i said try to hurt my feelings b/cuz really it doesnt,like i said this is entertainment,not real life,if u dont like me,my pix,my blogs,or anything els about me,i must ask what on earth u are doing on my page,on my friends list,talking to me,or even reading this,b/cuz u people who have tried to start shit with me know who u are.well i guess thats all i have for right now,i know i had some kind of point to make other than stop being douche bags,but me and tony smoked a few bowls after work,and i cant really think of it right now...so yea,thanx for your patience and time....oxoxox frankie

k so when i first got on here,ya'll couldnt rate me,fan me,add me,and comment me fast enough,i mean i could barely keep up.then one day it just stopped.wtf??!!??am i not pretty any more?did i lose w/e i had to make u guys like me?i think i still look the same.actually i look a bit better now,lost some weight,got a tan,i just need to get those new pix up on here! so that means i have to fix me cam!! dammit! oh well i hope u guysll like the changes once u do see them! oxoxox frankie ;)

lifes 2 short,so love the ones ya got! do u like it when your walking down the street minding your own business,and some butt pirate,gives you a dirty look for not one single reason? dont u think about it,if not all day for a least awhile,and wonder what u did wrong,and analyze everything your wearing,how you look,smell,walk,talk,smile,everything about you the some1 could possibly not like,which is every fucking thing about you! b/cuz lets face it,everything about us annoys some1....if not every1....so why be the person giving dirty looks,making others have a bad day,giving some poor girl an eating disorder b/cuz not she thinks she so fat she deserves your dirty little looks...or starts cutting her wrist b/cuz even pervect strangers dont like her...until she ends up cutting to deep,even though she knows there people in her life that love her,and that she loves very much...but theres just to much pain and hate in this evil world she was born in...do you want her death on your consience?do you want to hear her life story,then hear about how,your harsh words,and evil pranks brought her to her knees,and the blood all over the floor? no you wouldnt want that,b/cuz that would mean your guily! and you are! we all are,we've all had bad dayz and had a look of resentment,and hatred burned on our faces...its life...its only human...how bout on those dayz u wear your sunglasses? b/cuz i dont want to see the ugly faces your makin at me...i like smiles thankyouverymuch! and the little girl whos life is so fragile and delicate that an evil glace her way,could send her over the edge?she doesnt want to see it either. i know what your thinking.its not my problem,to worry about other people,or there lives.but really it is,thats why were here,to look out for each other...we are humans...not animals.although after watching animal planet for about 4 hours b/cuz i was hi,and couldnt find the remote...i saw that in a herd,or pack...or w/e..they take care of each other...if one zebras being chased they all are,if one hippo eats,they all eat,one girl hurts and crys...who hurts and crys with her? friends?family?you? do you stroke her hair?tell her its going to be ok?will you stay by her side until she feels better,or crys herself to sleep?will she wake up to your smiling face?are you that crying girl? btw....saying girl doenst exclude you guys...i know u have emotions,and even though u might not show them all to well,there still there....you can feel them..even if you wont admit it! so to get to the point b4 i write an effin novel...b/cuz i just might do that one of these dayz,about what im not sure,but ive got ideas...lots of them! stop being such self serving,self rightous,faciast nazis!! smile now and then,its not that big a deal! its just life!when some1 tells you look hott,or smell nice,or youve done a realyl good job you feel good about yourself right? well you should nyway.so why not repay the favor?tell some1 something nice,even if its kindof a lie...dont lie though,tats not nice...i said KINDOF a lie..so go tell some1 something nice..RIGHT NOW!! no i mean it,get on the phone,turn around,type a msg,do what u gotta do...just do it!! and tell me allll about it!! lol oxoxox frankie

omg! im 20!! fuckin amazing!! lol but no fo'real i didnt think id make it this far!! but im here and its great!! cant wait till 21!!! so now when ppl ask me how old iam i can proudly resply...IM 20 MOFO!!! lol my babys comin to see me and i get to throw a phat ass party,i went shoppin yesterday...lifes fuckin good!!!

but im effin BORED!! im in need of sum entertainment...lol so start jugglin flaming bowling pins, dancing in a loin cloth.. make up a song with my name in it.. or whatever else you can think off... oxox megan

ever heard a song and started to cry no matter how hard u tryed not 2? yea thats me and that song by Tim McGraw "dont take the girl" heard it? if not look it up and listen.its so beautiful and sad.i want that...dont you? yea,that would be nice.. youd rather die than live w/out me.. think ill find it? have i already? was it then? or now? or never?

and i dont even have to spend any of my money!!! lol i love being me!!! ill take pix when i get home of all my purtyness!! but that means u gotta comment comment comment!!!! oxoxoxxx ~megan~

im sooo effin bored!! sum1 cum talk to me!!! for real!! lol oxox megan

so im sittin here all alone on a friday night...why? i dont think thats fair at all.im so effin bored and hella tired from workin all day,but i still wanna party hella bad.i dont like living here,i wanna go home sooo bad.i miss it so much it makes me wanna cry.i used to hate it there and think it was boring and all that and that everywere else was better than were i lived.but now that i think about it,it was the like one of the best place to live.any thing i needed i got within the hour...and i do mean everything people.i had all my friends,the love of my life,my job,school and a place i could call my own.now i feel like im in a cross between prison and rehab,a rehab filled with ex-tweekers and alcoholics.i know this is something i should be writting on my myspace page,but the last thing i want is for my sister-in-law,who is on my friends list,read this and find out how much i hate it in her house.or how weak iam and cant seem to stay away from the one thing i know can and will take over my life.i have been lost before and as it turns out i liked being lost more than found,i like being high or drunk than sober.why?because when your sober you have to deal with who you really are,your problems are bitch smacking you in the morning to wake you up.your problems and memories are what brings you down,make you cry,make you angry,and make you hurt not only other people in you life but yourself.but when your in a differnt state of mind you dont have to do deal with the past present or future.you deal with RIGHT NOW,you dont have to be yourself,and sometimes being your self is a real pain in the ass.im in no way making exuses,im just thinking alot about my life right now and the direction its currently going in.on sunday it will be 12 years since my mom lost her battle with cancer.and thinking about her makes me wonder about what she would say about the way i have choosen to live my life,the kind of woman her lil baby girl grew up too be.and i know she would just cry her eyes out.im not the same little girl that played softball,jumped off the roof into our pool,climed trees,played drees up and had a whole entire soap opera that would rivial that of "All My Children" for my barbies.i have so much more to say,more than im aloud to type im sure.but im getting lost in myself,and cant quite stay in track.but for all of you who actually did read this i thank you for that,please understand that im a real person with a real life and everything that comes with it.