i miss you and dont know what to do :[
Current mood: depressed
Category: Romance and Relationships
I feel kinda depressed and dont know why
I am missing the guy I am in love with and he dont even know how much and I believe he dont even care. He says he loves me, but his actions and the way he talks to me tell me that he dont and could care less if I died right there next to him and he would just walk over me with out thinking twice about it.
It is my fault that we are not together I let my anger get the best of me and now he acts like he dont care and never did. If he never loved me then I was to in love by myself to see the lies. All the late night phone calls, falling asleep on the phone and not talking for hours just lying there listening to each other breath was just so he could brake my heart later when he was tired of me?
All the kisses and hugs, all the times he said I love you were they a game to you? They were so real to me it hurts to think about all the times you said I love you and now its like you never loved me and we didnt happen to you. I cry everytime I think about what we had and what it is now and how it ended. I want you to know that if I could I would take them words back if I could.
I get angry at myself for not controlling my temper and losing you the way I did. You will prob. never forgive me but that is the conquence of my actions and I understand that. And for years to come I will prob. never forgive myself. It has been almost 4 months and I still havent. I am still in love with you and cant fall out of love with you it hurt to hear you talk about the girls you dated after me. They could never love you like I do. I love you more than life its self and I dont think you relize that. I never knew what love was untill I fell in love with you. You showed me how to love and never held back.
You can make me laugh when I dont even want to smile and you can make me cry with a few simple words when I am in the best mood possible. You know me better than I know my self. You have brought out things I didnt even know about myself. You have changed me, in some ways good but mostly bad because I dont think I will ever love anyone the way I love you. I might date again but never love another man the way I love you.
All I think about is you. All I want is for you to tell me you love me and make me believe it again. All I need is to feel your love again and to feel the way I did when I was with you.
I know that will never happen and even if we got back together then it would never be the same, I would always be thinkin how much I missed you the time we was appart.
