Shelli's blog: "the way i feel inside"

another cutter, another freak another dork, another geek another prep, another jock another whore, & more punk rock another hater, another "g" another scar, they put on me another label, that happens to fall when no one really knows the person at all

every since you left i have felt empty inside. no one to turn to, no one to talk to. no shoulder to cry on on my time of need. to some ppl yes it is gettin over rated but not my fault how i feel it isn't like i can just stop loving you. i have been missing you for 5 months and the feeling is still there. you think i don't have feelings for you anymore but i just cant bring myself to tell you the truth about it. of course i still love you and i have tried to change that but it seems impossible. i have a whole notebook about you and the way i fell but now there are no more pages in it so now i write blogs. its not like you will read them so i just express my feeling here bc it seems like i have no one to lean on about this. you have moved on and yes i realize this but every time u r in need im there to help and im tired of holding on im tired of waiting on something that wont happen. all i think about is you everything i see reminds me of you every time u talk about her i cry every time i cry its for you my weakness is you. you and everyone else knows that it don't matter how bad you hurt me if you need me im there i stop what i am doing to talk to you i would never tell you that but its true. its funny how when i want to write about a anything else but you it is impossible for me you are my inspiration. you are the thing that keeps me going i would die for you and u know it so you just keep me hanging a round till you need me and when you are finished you drop me once again leave me waiting for you to be there to pick me back up. so this is my thoughts tonight idc what you thing idc what you say there it is and i dont give a fuck if you disagree