Out of all the feelings I must endure. . This is the one a hate most. That emptiness. .that feeling you will always be alone.. and you can never have the happiness you crave.. it's just out of reach.. because I'm just not good enough. . Because my head will always be in my way.. knowing I have and will run everyone off.. because I'm unpredictable. . And the blackness always..always returns.. that hole.. deep and ever dark..takes over.. and here I am..alone..still..and no end in sight.. I hate this feeling most of all