IAmSoNotAStoic's blog: "for holly"

WORK IN PROGRESS(arent they all)

BROKEN

Broken , a million pieces , never a whole
Broken glass always emptey never full
Broken dreams, broken promises, broken lives
shattered remains of what once seemed real
embracing pain, it lets me know im still alive
and  witha big dimpled smile i try to hide
of the dreadful secret ive been keeping inside
 that being to scared to die                                                                              
is the last thing that is  keeping
 a badly broken heart beating

Ashamed for the lies ive told
and the people i have let down
for being a burden to those that have tried to love me,
I Never met to hurt any of you,
Inever met to let u down
I miss that little boy that only knew how to love
mommy always  held him tight, warm sheltered protected from cold night
A little boy that always went to sleep t with the same dream
To grow up big and strong some day,
and with strong  buxom arms hold a wife and child of my own,
So i could Share with them the love i once knew
I just wish i wasnt so  broken,

would they both still love me

or would they to be badly broken

falling apart these seam wont hold
can never break out of this mold
of this dwinding shadow ive become
Wont you please, someone help me ?
I dont want to be broken any longer
 It's so cold in here
im going numb