As I sit here, I laugh quietly to myself as everyone else sleeps in peaceful slumber. I can't sleep because so many things stumble thru my minds slate. I have things that have to do with school all the way to them being in band, soccer, football or some other sport. Sometime I wonder if being a mom is all that I can give. I feel like a complete and total failure and I wish that I had a way to erase time. I am only getting heavier and looking worse as time goes by, a lot has to do with how I feel about myself but I can not seem to find my motivation in life. Does anyone have a TRUE motivation?? If so I would like to hear about it because the pen is close to paper/ razor close to wrist....