Deacon Songs's blog: "this and that"

When in an internal battle with yourself, one has to make a decision based on your perception of the situation you boil over. The factors are emotional, mental, and instinctual. How do we sift thru the facts and determine what is perception and what is scars from our personal past? Being with a person emotionally is so difficult to begin with, but when the warning flags fly high, its just too much to ignore our intellectual foresight. When you see something coming, and its so obvious that it cant be ignored...what else can you do but ease your mind by removing the things that make you stress/worry.

I have seen recently things that made me extremely uneasy with a person i got myself involved with. yes it was exciting and rather intense. BUT when words and actions contradict themselves, I started thinking. I come to the conclusion that the end result will be somewhere i dont want to be.  Peoples actions are habitual and I could see myself in a position i have been before and I wont do it again. Misery. 

But why is it, people become insulting if they dont get what they want? for example "Be a man and talk to me about this" because they havent been given the opportunity to convince me to change my mind. 

I refuse to be with someone i dont trust.

I refuse ignor the red flags that scream "you are gonna get fucked over"

I refuse to be with someone I cant trust

I refuse to accept certain things.

I refuse to wonder if a person is faithful like they said they would be.

I refuse to allow myself to ignore my gut feeling.

Finally i refuse to be uncomfortable in a relationship because i dont want to be alone. 

as you were