I wish I don't have to work today.... It's going to be a real crappy day. Just a feeling but I won't keep being so negative. I barely got any sleep. I get a text from someone and had the feeling I knew who it was. Should I ignore it and continue to sleep or what... I ended up talking about stuff.
Do you ever get those crappy feelings when you try to do something right but then it always gets twisted around in some way?
Like, when i lived with room mates, I opened up a mail that was sitting in the living room for months and he wasn't living there anymore. He came back to get his mail and wondered who opened it. I could of just lied and say I didn't open it but I confessed that I did it. Thinking I would be a good person and be honest, but no, that turned to crap.
Or how about when people say to be honest about your feelings towards someone or something but when you do, it just gets worse. As if it was better that you didn't say anything at all.
Or how about when you go out all your way to help someone and they don't even thank you for all the trouble?
Maybe I should keep my mouth shut and not be so helpful. Maybe I need a break from everything and everything. Hmm, I dunno. Not that it would matter or anything. Sigh...I wish I just had a good friend that I could trust. Every time I think I would have one, something happens.
I hate WoW......destroys everything. What to do, I don't know. I just don't care anymore, I guess....I dunno.
Ugh, I hate it when you're upset then you start thinking about other things, so it all just piles on like a snow ball creating to become a larger snow ball......shit just piles on and on....
Just be yourself....every one says....yeah yeah and when I do...I just fuck things up. Maybe something will land on my head today or something.... to shut me up.
I just want to disappear now.....I wish I could start life all over again... Hmmm well...time for my shower.......I really don't wanna work today....
