The things that I dont understand and im 25 years old the feelings that run through our body. the reason they make us crazy and push us to the point when we seem to be crying or acting like a baby. when all we are trying to do is express ourself and let our feeling flow insted of being bottled up and at sometime explode. I see myself as a person that will say what and how i feel and i need to know how to control that cause at times somethings should not be said and left alone. and that has been a problem with me for sometime now i just cant find the right thing not to say. and it pushs everybody around me in the wrong way not to mention makes me look like a asshole everytime my mouth opens. so some would say but thats coming from me and i can say that cause thats how i feel. i find myself by myself alot of the time thinking is it somthing that i said or someting that i did. my life is about to change for the better and i hope that i can keep my mouth shut when it needs to be shut and put my thoughts in place of my mouth and try not to ramble about the things that dont matter. and put my family before anybody else thats what i should of did a long time ago this is my last chance and im trying to do the best that i can i dont want to lose everything that means something to me also let the little stuff role off my chest and just know that she is here with me and that is the fact knowing that she does love me makes all the diffrence and never taking her for granted like i did before and she called my bluff that was one of the hardest lession in life that i learned all by myself the day that door closed i was like fuck what did i do and how can i fix it and how fast but only time will tell and it did
