Today was startin out of a good day. i woke up and it was snowing the trees where covered in ice and it was so beautiful looking. i just wished my hubby could have been here to be with me and cuddle ... I miss him like crazy and never stop thinking about it...
NOW im not so sure.. i should even contiue to be with him.. Lately his been actin kinda weird.. as if somethings going on.. I was checkin out Myspace. as i do everyday.. i leave comments on my hubbys page everyday just to let him know im thinkin about him. you know.. BUT as i read the comment from one of his friends let a comment that kinda made me think.. and the way she said things. it makes it sound like his sleepin with people. which i can understand the fact that of course every guy need pussy ... and i can understand that. but when your with someone that you supposedly love with every inch of your beating heart.... i just don't understand how somoene could do that. MAYBE his not .. maybe im just worried since we live 1798 miles away but, after him sayin if i want to have sex to go for it. as we live far apart. but i could never do that.. i rather masterbate for the rest of my long life then touch someone else.. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH... and it would kill me a lil to know his sleepin with someone of course like i would get over it and we'd never split over it.. but WHY OH WHY does my stomach MAKE ME FEEL THAT HE IS SLEEPING WITH SOME ONE??????
WHY DOES LIFE TEST YOU SO HARD?? WHY DOES PEOPLE SAY THEY LOVE YOU THEN STAB RIGHT THREW YOUR CHEST?
PLEASE send me your comments and messages if you have some.. Cheer me up.... I LOVE YOU STEVE... *wipes the tears from my cheek... *
