If you read my last blog, then you know how messed up my family can be...but that doesn't even begin to scratch the surface. I recieved a call from my brother the other night and he went off on me for the situation with my daughter and boys. My mother gave him the impression that I don't want anything to do with my children. I sent my daughter to live with her so that she could go to school. My brother didn't know any of this, and neither did my sister....I got an earfull from her a few days later.
After I explained everything to my sister, she came to the realization that my mother has been lying and will always be out to screw me when she sees a good oppurtunity. I honestly thought that she had changed (my mother). Otherwise, I would've never sent Angel to live with her. Why does she feel the need to lie to me, to hurt me, to make me feel like nothing I do ever matters?
She is seriously messed up in the head. The only explaination that I can come up with is that she does it to make herself feel better. Her life hasn't turned out the way she hope and now she is trying to ruin mine.
When I was in high school I thought that it was just the normal teenage frustration that almost everyone goes through. You are suppost to test their boundries when you are younger. just as they are suppost to test you. But it was so much more than that, more than just butting heads and trying to gain independence.
Now she is lying to the rest of my family and trying to hurt me even more. I guess that it wasn't good enough that she fucked me up mentally and emotionally. Now she is trying to ruin my relationships with the rest of my family. Not just my brother and sister but also my father (he and my mother are divorced, wonder why) and my grandmother. How far will she go? How many others will she try to turn against me?
I am at the point where I don't want anything to do with those family members anymore. If they are going to believe all those awafull things about me and critsize me, why would I want them in my life?
Anyway, my stress levels are through the roof. I'm trying to distract myself as much as possible. Sometimes it works...then I find myself thinking about everything late at night. It really sucks. I'm sorry that I haven't been on here as much lately. I just have a lot on my plate and I'm trying to deal with it all.
