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restless21's blog: "Me"

created on 06/10/2008  |  http://fubar.com/me/b222476

Especially me

I am tired and sick and sick and tired of everything, especially me; To smart for my own good, I talk without being heard, and hear without listening; I just want to be loved is what I say but what I really mean is I dont want to be lonely; Giving my heart to dreams of what could be; hoping, praying but never demanding anything in return I want to be loved for who I am, what I do, and how I do it; but does this really exist beyond God? Im trying, giving up, trying, failing, trying, letting go, nothing to hold onto thats real; I live in my music, my books, my movies: searching for an answer...or perhaps just to know that I am not the only one... Needing, yearning, even making up answers to their hearts questions, but never quite finding the answers I am lost between what should be what I want to be and what actually is. I left no bread crumbs behind, so I am feeling around in the dark with only solemn prayers that the path I choose is the right one They Say I should be thankful for what I do have, that things could be so much worse, but what in the hell do they know seeing as how they haven't walked a mile in my shoes; No relief from the breadth of my heart and the yearn in my soul Mind constantly wrapping itself around the straws of understanding; Grasping for ANYthing to make it believe EVERYthing is o.k. Life chooses to give no explanations or make any apologies and time has simply left the building; my hiding places are being found out by all and so I stand: Naked Exposed Yet...still left fully unknown Change constant has become my own personal trap door from this; That is...that for which I do not, I mean refuse to face In full view, yet totally hidden will be my story always; For as the seconds turn to minutes, and minutes to hours and hours to days, I forget to remember to forget my past...lying dormant yet active always: Further into the abyss of my mind I fall, farther away from any chance of being understood I lay; There is life here...one day, but for today I am tired and sick and sick and tired of everything, especially me
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