AT about 2:00AM I had a surge of energy and woke from a deep sleep. I was trembling, suddenly, my thoughts were directed toward my behavior as a dad. It became so apparent the mistakes I have made and the changes i needed to make.
I realized that lying even about insignificant things is a cage. The truth is easier to remember. So, I purged and confessed the wrongs and sought forgiveness from those I mistreated. It was like freeing up space on my harddrive.
Honesty is important to me, and I am a human lie detector. I have studied human behavior well before I began working toward a bachelor's degree in that field.
I also treasure modesty. Wisdom can not be fully acheived if pride controls behavior.
I am also well into learning how to speak and communicate in Spanish. I have interests in the Carib and need to be able to communicate/negotiate in both languages.
Finally, I choose to believe. I believe. I believe because i have external evidence to support what I believe, but it ony supplements what I believe. I control the dialogue in my head. Nothing is beyond my reach-except singing maybe.
I have done well enough in business that I can pursue more exotic professions. I believe with the same certainty that my last director had in his voice when he told me, Just try, and yes, you will make it" He even inquired where I had been, I should have been discovered a long time ago....i put this in just after that whole bit on modesty. but it is fact. and if the truth is a tool to use for my advantage, then self promotion is a necessary evil.
Whatever happened almost 4 years ago to the day, has changed me forever. I am a good father and kids warm up to me very quickly. (im not pushy). I want to get a significant role in a feature film, I want to write a dozen screenplays, at least 3 books, and engender greater opportunity for my kids. My oldest daughter is already a phenomenal artist. My second daughter was cast with me in a stage play, and my son is one of the most intellectual, detail oriented boys--he is just afraid of confrontation.
SO, I am a dreamer. I am an artist. I have trouble with structured living. I am not traditional. I channel focus and may be completely oblivious to anything peripheral.
I teach my kids about focus and listening.
I am not flawless. But I am happy with whom I have become, self-confident, and genuine. I also am sincere in my efforts to advise--I get asked about things more than Dr.Phil.
well d'as all folks
JiMmY KoMeT
