Type O Neg Grl's blog: "The Pain Inside"

I live in a world where love doesn't exist,
Only sadness and hate that it does consist. Butterflies once fluttered in my stomach here & there,
Now it's empty & when I sleep I get the same nightmare.
Don't make me suffer anymore,
Everything seems like a bore.

I want to be so far away from here,
Take me from this place which I fear.
The happiness I once had inside has been left behind,
And been replaced with something mean and unkind.
I don't want this feeling to be gone,
It brings me sorrow but I don't want it to leave me all alone.

This love used to glow and glistened,
Now all thats left is small and abandoned.
Why does everyone just want to hurt and dislike me?
I try to fix things and bring joy so terribly.
Theres no longer any determination left inside,
All I want to do is give up and hide.

The evil thing tortures me and hurts me so bad,
Theres nothing to save me and make me glad.
Some days I want to get up and run away, Other times I feel worthless and must stay.
Bring back the joy of living in a world full of love;
Bring me what I've been dreaming of.

I'm sitting in this darkness showing regret;
Drinking shadows and hiding in my bed
I'm constantly laying here and trying to forget;
Every time I cried & Every word you said.

I didn't write this,but its exactly how I feel